Ambivalent

For now, we have a spot in the study- although the study could be completed before we begin treatment- then we would not have a spot...

Ambivalent... not sure what is best for our family and me at this point...
for now, we have an appointment for our consultation in Chicago on St. Patrick's Day- March 17th @ 12:30- our nephew, Kevin, is going to watch our kids at his apartment...

I just found this quote on someone's blog and think it sums up my concerns:

Regret for things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable.
--Sydney J. Harris

I just keep offering all of this up to God, requesting that He close doors sooner than later, if He does not want me to do this...